Mystery Love

How can I love you if I don’t know how?

How can I tell you I love you without opening my mouth?

I often wonder how you view me versus how I view myself

Wondering if you take an account of my flaws or simply put them on a shelf

Do you think of me when you are alone?

Do you desire to call me just to hear me breathe on the other end of the phone?

How can I show you how much I think about you whether at work or in the comfort of my home?

I needed you before I realized I had a need

I inhaled you before I was even conceived

I close my eyes and it’s you I see…

Remembering every sweet word you have spoken to me produces a melody

My heart skips a beat

I am intrigued

How can I love you if I don’t know how?

By allowing love to remove my fears, my flaws, and my doubts

HE loves Me

It feels so good to know you love me and my flaws
To know you love me with your all

I didn't know this kind of love existed
I knew the definition of love was listed
I'm just glad I'm a witness
I'm so glad I didn't miss it

It makes me love you more to know I don't have to do things to make you love me
Your love sets my spirit free
I never thought love would take care of my needs

I ask and love responds
No conditions, no contracts---why would I run
Away when your love fuels my day.

I love...Love

Winter Mood

Warm and cozy
Hot and toasty
I love the way you make me feel

Because of you I look forward to going home
So we can be alone
And wallow in today's song

You make me fall in love with my bed
This is as good as it gets
How I love your caress

This is the only time I get to do this
Because your mood is so swift

So I lay and anticipate
Your next snowflake.

When I grow up

Many people say when you grow up you can be anything you desire to be

However, I find that it is not that easy

What if a person is unsure of what they want to be?

To whom do they look to: mommy, daddy, or society?

But that cannot be it

What if there is no one to mimic

Even if mommy’s a lawyer and daddy’s a doctor maybe that is not the path they desire to take

However, at least in this case one has someone to imitate

I have discovered that you can go to school all of your life and still not become the person you studied

Is that not a waste of time, money, and energy?

What if you are a first-generation college student representing the family

Naturally in this case there is more at stake

Because everyone starts to dictate who and what they think you should be

And since life is all about making the right decisions, one does not want to make the wrong one and end up misplaced on the family tree.

Therefore, when I grow up I desire to be…me!

An Eye Opener

Does the way I dress offend you?

Do I intimidate you because of my tattoos?

I see your looks and I hear you talk about me

Trying to make me feel ashamed, trying to rid me of my dignity

I would be lying if I said that words do not hurt

But it is a double jeopardy when these words come out of the mouths of people from the church

God did not condemn you when you got off track

And yet you seem to carry my sins on your back

You may have your degrees and money in the bank

But the Lord says that HE does not have a respect of persons, so who are you to tell me I can’t

I love the Lord just like you

And you cannot hide behind your doctrines because I know the truth

I may not know but one scripture but I know how to operate it in my life

And as I continue to read and meditate in the Word

You will see my darkness transform into that marvelous light

What happened to brotherly love and covering each other’s sins?

Help me to guard my heart and renew my mind, teach me to control the thoughts in my head

Stop judging me and covering my legs

I need to know how to be blessed

Oh! How we forget?

How people were standing in the gap praying for you

Fasting to see you through

It has not been that long ago that like just like me…

You were a sinner too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Job application

Been in school all of my life, does that make me smart

Not qualified for CEO; over qualified for Q-Mart

So many ambitions and dreams and not enough time

So I continue to search in order to find a career that is all mine

No problem in passing a drug test

But I do not want to get stuck behind a desk

Can speak intelligently, can hold a conversation

Filing paper all day becomes an irritation

Like a rash that needs to be scratched

I am looking for a career that has the perfect match

Plenty of work experience, some temporary and others that did not quite work out

Willing to provide miscellaneous info like non-related contacts

Yes, the answers to my application are true

These are my life’s facts

Like a Victoria Secret bra, I want a career that is a perfect fit

What does it matter if I am black, white or Non-Hispanic?

I would prefer not to answer because my answer determines if I am in the top picks.

Fairytale

You have not opened the door for me in a long time

Nor have you called me in the middle of the night, just because I was on your mind

You act as if you forget the terms “wine and dine”

No flowers, no perfume, no sweet little nick names

You have changed!

I am trying to rekindle the fire but you keep blowing out the flames

Just because we have a family now does not mean the fun stops

There was a time when we were together we would pay no attention to the clock

You find it easy to disregard or talk to me any kind of way

Somebody should have warned me of the “real you” before our wedding day