Experience

I can't say I have any regrets since the day we met
Even when there were things I couldn't detect
I simply refuse to believe that another's actions define me

 So even if I loose sight, even if I am unsure of what I like

I'm grateful for you showing me what I don't.

Inspired

Within four corners of my room
I see unscrambled words waiting to be consumed
The four chambers of my heart beat nonstop
Steadily waiting for the ink to drop

 My thought processes yearn for change
Through it all the chambers remain the same and yet continues to reign

I need it like I need words to do the job I was destined to do
Because I am but a mere voice looking for clues

That's why my heart beats.

Coming Soon...

 The music was so loud the vibrations sent chills down my spine

Mo: Let’s go to the bar

Bee-Bee: Okay

We head towards the bar.

Unknown guy: You looking good in that dress. You gotta let me buy you a drink.

The guy was so close to Mo I thought we were going to have to plan a baby shower.

Unknown guy: So what are you drinking?

Mo: An apple martini

Unknown guy: Hey. Give the lady what she want.

The bartender begins to fix drinks

While the bartender fixes the drinks I notice a short guy walking towards us. It looked like he was staring at Bee-Bee’s chest but he was small so I really didn’t know the difference.

Small guy: Excuse me, wanna dance

Bee-Bee: No but you can buy me a drink

Small guy: Buy you a drink? Them drinks $8. I don’t even know you like that

Bee-Bee: And you never will. Please leave.

Small guy: Man ain’t nobody trying to holla at you anyway

Little man walks off pissed while another guy approaches. I mean we just got here. We haven’t even had time to wet our throats and its already starting to jump off.

Unknown guy 2: Excuse me was he bothering you?

Bee-Bee: Not really

Unknown guy 2: Can I

Bee-Bee: Yes you can

Unknown guy 2: You didn’t let me finish the question

Bee-Bee: Doesn’t matter. The answer is yes.

Lord have mercy. Now the guy who approached Bee-Bee was absolutely gorgeous. He was fair skinned. He looked about 5’11. Broad shoulders. White teeth. Clean shoes. Dark wavy hair and clean nails. To sum it up: whoever you think is fine that’s who he look like. Why in the world didn’t he pick me?

Unknown guy 2: We can get drinks later. Let’s dance

He looked so good I started to say okay

Bee-Bee: Okay (Don’t wait up she whispers to me as she and Mr. Gorgeous disappear through the crowd on the dance floor).

I started to tell her don’t she wait up. But I didn’t want to be no hater. Then all of a sudden the DJ started playing my song “Smack Sum, Drop Sum.” I headed to the dance floor. By the time I got to the drop sum part I had at least five guys trying to dance with me. Man these shorts are a hit.

Mo: Hey

Dia: Whats up Mo? Where’s your friend?

Mo: He went to the bathroom.  They are jamming in here tonight.

Dia: I know.

Mo: Where is Bee-Bee?

Dia: I will tell you later.

Suddenly we hear people arguing behind us

Mo: What in the world is going on?

DJ: Yo, Yo, Yo. Fellas, ya’ll take that outside

Dia: Who knows? Probably some clowns arguing over a girl. It looks like they leaving.

Mo: Oh. Turn up DJ (She yells)

The DJ then plays that one song at the club that gets people rowdy. He played “Slap that Fool.” The club went crazy. Then…the unthinkable. Gun shots were fired. I went down.

Mo: Dia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(excerpt from soon to be released book written by Lashuntres Redmon)

Can you sing?

What is your song?

Not what you hear on the radio
The praise that's already in you that nobody knows about
For this is praise in its purest form

Open your mouth and sing praises
You made it!!!
You are making it!!!!

Your story is your song
We sing about so many other people testimony

It doesn't have to rhyme
Open your mouth and sing your testimony for someone else

Your song SHOULD be on the top of the charts

Speak to Me

I really don't have the words to describe every situation I face
Partly because some things I simply cannot explain
But one thing is for sure I'm learning money cannot fix everything


Sometimes at that very moment, the best thing you can give me is silence.
Just be there and I will hear you.

Soul Mate

It's that feeling you get when you know something big is getting ready to happen

It's like watching a play so good you can't stop clapping

You don't know what
You don't know how
You don't know when

And yet your face is stiff with an unexpected grin

You want to sleep but you don't want to miss it when it happens so you lie awake when every one is sleep, not making a peep
Anxiously waiting for the day your souls finally meet.

Always Sound the Alarm

To have liberties and yet boundaries

It’s what it means to be free

The truth, the spoken Word

Outlawing traditions once heard

Promoting change and prosperity

Realizing one’s true identity

Experiencing true spiritual intimacy…

As one reads, lives and walks into their destiny

Shying away from condemnation

Walking and speaking love in our daily confessions

Always bringing our flesh under subjection

Taking complete control over our emotions…

So that in the end one will hear those special words, “well done,”

Appealing to all nationalities, genders, sex, origin and race

Because as World Changers our motto is to make a mark that cannot be erased!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    

Sometimes...

Sometimes I really don't feel like:

1. Getting out of bed
2. Combing my hair
3. Talking on the phone
4. Reading long posts on social networks
5. Putting clothes on
6. Leaving the house
7. Driving
8. Putting on makeup
9. Shaving
10. Cleaning up

And these are but a mere few
Compared to all the things women do.

Why do we do the things we do?

This is my list. What's yours?

Mystery Love

How can I love you if I don’t know how?

How can I tell you I love you without opening my mouth?

I often wonder how you view me versus how I view myself

Wondering if you take an account of my flaws or simply put them on a shelf

Do you think of me when you are alone?

Do you desire to call me just to hear me breathe on the other end of the phone?

How can I show you how much I think about you whether at work or in the comfort of my home?

I needed you before I realized I had a need

I inhaled you before I was even conceived

I close my eyes and it’s you I see…

Remembering every sweet word you have spoken to me produces a melody

My heart skips a beat

I am intrigued

How can I love you if I don’t know how?

By allowing love to remove my fears, my flaws, and my doubts

HE loves Me

It feels so good to know you love me and my flaws
To know you love me with your all

I didn't know this kind of love existed
I knew the definition of love was listed
I'm just glad I'm a witness
I'm so glad I didn't miss it

It makes me love you more to know I don't have to do things to make you love me
Your love sets my spirit free
I never thought love would take care of my needs

I ask and love responds
No conditions, no contracts---why would I run
Away when your love fuels my day.

I love...Love

Winter Mood

Warm and cozy
Hot and toasty
I love the way you make me feel

Because of you I look forward to going home
So we can be alone
And wallow in today's song

You make me fall in love with my bed
This is as good as it gets
How I love your caress

This is the only time I get to do this
Because your mood is so swift

So I lay and anticipate
Your next snowflake.

When I grow up

Many people say when you grow up you can be anything you desire to be

However, I find that it is not that easy

What if a person is unsure of what they want to be?

To whom do they look to: mommy, daddy, or society?

But that cannot be it

What if there is no one to mimic

Even if mommy’s a lawyer and daddy’s a doctor maybe that is not the path they desire to take

However, at least in this case one has someone to imitate

I have discovered that you can go to school all of your life and still not become the person you studied

Is that not a waste of time, money, and energy?

What if you are a first-generation college student representing the family

Naturally in this case there is more at stake

Because everyone starts to dictate who and what they think you should be

And since life is all about making the right decisions, one does not want to make the wrong one and end up misplaced on the family tree.

Therefore, when I grow up I desire to be…me!

An Eye Opener

Does the way I dress offend you?

Do I intimidate you because of my tattoos?

I see your looks and I hear you talk about me

Trying to make me feel ashamed, trying to rid me of my dignity

I would be lying if I said that words do not hurt

But it is a double jeopardy when these words come out of the mouths of people from the church

God did not condemn you when you got off track

And yet you seem to carry my sins on your back

You may have your degrees and money in the bank

But the Lord says that HE does not have a respect of persons, so who are you to tell me I can’t

I love the Lord just like you

And you cannot hide behind your doctrines because I know the truth

I may not know but one scripture but I know how to operate it in my life

And as I continue to read and meditate in the Word

You will see my darkness transform into that marvelous light

What happened to brotherly love and covering each other’s sins?

Help me to guard my heart and renew my mind, teach me to control the thoughts in my head

Stop judging me and covering my legs

I need to know how to be blessed

Oh! How we forget?

How people were standing in the gap praying for you

Fasting to see you through

It has not been that long ago that like just like me…

You were a sinner too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!